I am perfectionist by nature. Everything must be right even tiny meeny details. Sometimes I think my nature is making me into a difficult person to deal with.
Many days I dreamt about been a stay-at-home-mum with my 2 growing kids. Attending to their needs, doing house chores and same time making myself a better person. But the truth is sometimes I ended up been wounded. Even before I am a real SAHM. How ironic!
For the time being, I am something like this lady. Juggle between work and family.
But few women I know have done it and they are becoming a better mum and wife at home. They sacrificed their high paid career to stay at home and taking care of the household. When I was in my early 20s, I told myself that I would not want to stay at home and be like my mum. I was in my career woman mind back then. Want to earn big money, go for holidays, buy the things I want to, spend like nobody business and lead the life I want. But now that I am in her shoes, I grow to understand her feelings and how she has struggled all those years at home with 3 young kids. She done it perfectly and how her 3 offsprings accomplished in life.
I would love to learn from my mum. And so I plod on. Decided to follow her footsteps. Although her is the other way round. A full time homemaker who eventually helping my dad in his business at home. You can said that my mum is a semi work-at-home mum.
Once a while I am imagining how my new job description and work scope would be. A cook. A cleaner. A decorator. A gardener. A teacher. Cooking, cleaning, gardening and teaching would be a constant routine.
I am going to become like this lady, minus the baby as both kids are growing. Hahah!
Like any other jobs, I know that it is a tough job with long time and I may come down to being depressed and unmotivated. But I know that it is worth everything and sacrifices. Because a love from home is what my kids need. And with love, they can learn better and become better persons. And I will learn along with my kids. Every steps we take, we will take it with full hearts and minds. *wink*